turning into night

After a period of rough seas and heavy rain, one would expect a rainbow shining overhead. Not for me. All I want is tranquility and sweet music.

Exams are coming in a week's time. I've only just realise how screwed this semester has been. So screwed that I have begun saving up for an unofficial fourth term. 7k wasted on this term...should have known better. Now to work towards a successful third term so that I will not officially screw myself all over.

Kids are damn amusing/fcuked up sometimes. Today I cam to know of a P5 who is crushing rather heavily on this female teacher. Ok la, she is quite pretty, the kind guys will glady take home to meet the parents. Quintessential girl next door lah. So I enquired about her lah with a couple of P6 boys. Suddenly, they start declaring that I like her! I was like, "No lah. She married already. Don't like her anyway, can't like her. Don't want to spoil a happy marriage(AS IF!!!)." "Sir, don't bluff us". " "Really, I got girlfriend(which I don't have and will not have I suppose in the near and far future)..come come, I show you."

So off I went to friendster and bedek bedek show them some pictures of my female friends la, just so to throw them off the trail(and not create gossip of me in the school). Then they turn around and say, "Sir!!! So you got girlfriend and like Miss T**."

To quote my dear friend 'oNg': NABEIZ JIB*E!!! Si ginna, don't talk so much LPJW lah. KNN... Of course not out loud la, I still want to eat rice leh.

Why am I so not like them when I was young??? Or was I?

Oh, and to those who frequent this piece of crap blog, do keep 16/05/07 free. Cause we are gonna Mambo. And you better follow the Jumbo. With us. Chais only.

Actually not chai also can. Just come la, cause Xuxian opening bottle! Hahahah!

on holiday!

First, I got to say that I am really enjoying my holidays at the moment.
the past week has been great. and many ntu and nus friends maybe hating me at the moment.
waking up late, watching every single of my fav tv shows, dota all day, lazing all day is simply too too too great at the moment. Damn~ life never feels so good. while blogging this post, i am watching MSU2007, that Jessica Tan is smoking my eyes. phew~
at the same time, federer and nadal is having yet another showdown at the final of Monte Carlo. this is damn cool.
Reality check! (darn.)
ok yes i have to find a job this week. i'll stop being fussy and grab any that come to me, at least one with a ok pay. i realise wakeboarding is too addictive to stop, i have to do it every week. well, i am not so lucky, as some of my friends actually got sponsor to wake. arh well, life's great but seldom fair. but that's ok eh~
anyway cheers to holidays! a deserved and beautiful season where everyone celebrate. until then, i shall wait to feel the wonderful tile of 9 strokes.

Tears for the departed.

I just received news that an online friend of mine, of around 8-9 years, has passed away.

Her nick was Demorea, her name was Mara.

Not only did she teach me the ways of the game but she taught me the ways of life too.

Damn cancer.

I never met her in real life, neither did i speak to her through a phone.

She never told me about her condition, or maybe cos i didn't have a chance to speak to her for over a year or so.

She was a true friend like all of my 'online friends' who did not care how i looked but cared for what i was.

Now i regret. For not talking to her, not telling her how much i missed talking to her, not telling her how much i loved her as a friend and mentor before she left.

Now i drink. To her memory which will live on forever within me and all her friends.

Now i mourn. For she has left and the world is lacking in one beautiful person who made a difference.

I have not shed tears for a very long time, but now they fall for a true friend which i will never forget.

This night i mourn.

My life will never be the same again.

In loving memory of Demorea/Mara, mentor and friend. You shall be remembered forever.
Love Stanley a.k.a Mil

wah lao eh~~

wah lao eh! finally, all the ordeals seemed to be over. my exam has finally ended (not so for ntu and nus), stan mounting his last 2 wks of duty and bryan....erm wanking his 360 hard as usual (pun and everything included).

So it's means reward time...Yes! BBQ time. Well, the turnout was bad as many bastards are still having exams and many of stan's and bryan's friends decide to turn pilot and put aeroplane.

the pit!

goosing around

funky, monkey ipod

pool side - del mar style

still, with the good food, drinks, and music! it's the ALMOST perfect combination. yes, almost the perfect combination. from the picture you can see what's the one last crucial factors that's missing. ya, we still seriously lack chais. Damn it...but still cheers for bbq!

musically

Have you ever heard a song on the radio, the internet, your mp3 player on random and had memories flooding back? The song that makes you remember of events, the song that makes you think of someone. The favourite song which you won't forget as it represents so much,the attainble, the anguish, the pain, that gushy moment...

I was playing my iPod nano on random, a couple of songs hit. Boy, did those memories came back. Those songs...

Dying Inside to Hold You by Timmy Thomas: Reminded me of that time in JC, when I kinda really liked this girl. And this song played when we were having lunch at Black Canyon Coffee. And things...blahhhhhhhh, whatever...

Brighter Than Sunshine by Aqualung: Pre-armaggedon period regarding the above mentioned JC period.

What Can I Do by The Corrs: Post armaggedon period regarding the above mentioned JC period.

Lost in Emotion by Lisa Lisa & Cult Jam: My first ever Mambo Night song! Woot woot~~

Gasolina by Daddy Yankee: Impact song in Phuture. Woot woot woo~~

Majullah Singapura by ????: First piece of music heard upon arrival on Pulau Tekong.

Say Hello by Deep Dish: One of the favourites on non Hip-Hop R&B nights out.

And finally...

Good Morning, Teacher! by Aiyoyo Lao Shi: Don't deny this song is an impact playa!!!

So, what's your music memory?

totally randomized - final (pang)

Well if you think that the 3 of us decide on the title of the post, we didn't. Past 2 weeks have been hectic, rushing overnights to finish my project and exam is on-going currently. Basically, too many thoughts overwhelmed me...sigh~

And ya, 'gay' has been pretty much the talkabout lately, though do not doubt the 3 of us. We're are perfectly on the right track, neither crooked nor effeminate. As I see this group of people, just treat them normally as long as we ain't the target. they're normal just tat they prefer it that way.

Holidays is next week, I need a job to substantiate my expense and passion. the next 3 months is pretty vague now at this point of time......

I think I need to know what I want. my emotion and rational thoughts clashed, making life terrible but this is so due to me being too free and bored and contented.

Maybe, I think, I should....arh~ whatever....

But that's life, the boredom, the confused, the lost, the happiness, the discontent, the unwanted, the desire, the every every 'lil things... otherwise, wouldn't it be monotonous.

Yesss love...
I love my family. I love all my friends. I love my passion. sometimes not myself though. but still I heart them, for without them I am nothing, we are nothing.

totally randomized part 2 (stan)

$50 and above T-shirts. For fashion or is it really just plain ripping off? But hell it looks nice... *blink*

I have 'uncovered' the fact that some people i know which i thought were straight are gay. And their gay partners are each other i think. It has brought me some sleepless nights due to the fact that i had no idea and the shock has not worn off.

I feel lonely at times but then i remind myself of all the bullshit that a relationship brings about.

Drinking does not stop you from thinking, it just prevents you from thinking straight. Sure as hell lets you have a good night sleep tho.

Motorcycles are cool. Sucks when you think so and you don't even know how to ride a bicycle.

When it's your time to go you should go. Even after more than a year of bullshit from superiors and a whole bunch of idiotism to suck up, I'll still miss the place.

There goes my glass of Black Label neat, now i shall have to refill it. I wonder how long this bottle will last...

I have found out stuff which i am still wondering if i should have found out. I need another drink.

Confused.

I hate my life alot but i'm still here.

I heart wakeboarding and all things which i heart.

torally randomized

Contrary to popular belief, yours truly ain't dead nor am i wanking feverishly on my Xbox 360. Instead, i have turned into a half serial mugger as the exams are nearing. Half serial mugger is so as im also tied down with the job at the moment, where rest comes in merciful 20mins bouts.

Growing too attached to students under one's charge, good or bad thing? Attached for this instance does not mean those paedophillic and pathetic sexual/dating/student-teacher relationship. Would the students look up to the guide or take advantage of him/her?

More instances of couples blocking up the aisle on buses. The female seats on aisle seats while the male protects. Somehow or rather, i think the male will need more protecting himself from angry passengers.

Boys love Winne The Pooh. Oh, they do. I don't. I'm a MAN.

$50 and above T-shirts. For fashion or just plain ripping off?

Speedpost ain't really speedy. Twice a week (basic airmail)shipments from USA? Ridiculous!

Chais. Are they growing in population or are my standards dropping(if any in the first place...)?

I heart Island Creamery. I really do.

I heart Banditto too.

lifeless

With my upcoming ORD date and lots of nothingness to do i feel my life getting even more boring than ever.

Nothing much for me to do in camp anymore since the new guys have arrived. Dismounting days are getting kinda boring since Pang is busy like hell and Bryan just seems to wank his 360 all day. The rest of the 06 people are missing as usual and i can't be bothered to organize anything since most of them would be busy with either school or what not. How boring...

Well since Pang is busy i can't really go wakeboarding unless i go myself. Sometimes i wonder if life would be more interesting if i had a female to mess up my finances, give me some emotional bullshit to think upon and drive me mental. But then i pull up my txt file of quotes and find this oh so true and enlightening quote, can't really remember who it's from tho.

- "yeah. like i really miss the uncertainty, the rejection, the bullshit, the cheating, the lying, the games, the weird fucking mating ritual dance, the expectations, the arguments, the mood swings, the temper tantrums, the breakups and that awful piece of shit feeling only another human being can make you feel."

So then i think again after reading and i decide against the foolish action. Which leaves me little options in my boring life. Mainly Dota, reading, eating and sleeping. Oh not to mention to pre-ORD jitters i'm getting. "What am i going to do after i ORD? Can i find a job? Will it be good? Can i actually earn enough money to buy a vietnam bride and support a family?" Sheesh, sometimes you wish life were more enjoyable with less troubles, but then that won't be life. I really shouldn't be complaining but enjoying this slackness while i can. Get cracking, go workout keep myself fit, start financially planning for my future and start job hunting and stuff. I only got 1 word to describe my lack of action, 'lazy'. So i'll just continue being lifeless and ranting like a blind hobo about the doom of all mankind which should happen in the next 10 days 6 hours 3 minutes and 59 seconds, mark my words! So anyone wanna go for some dinner and coffee?

Oh boredom oh boredom will thou be the death of me?

From http://postsecret.blogspot.com, and no i didn't send it, i just found it nice.